Day 164: Agitation

Whenever I lack sleep, agitation follows next day, as if, anything less than 8 hrs of sleep means automatic agitation next day, a hard-coded rule. And from agitation, its pretty easy to access blame.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create agitation within my mind, whenever I lack sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and accept that ‘lack of sleep’ exist, not seen/realizing, 5-6 hrs is ample for the body, but its the mind that wants 8 hrs of sleep.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the definition ‘lack of sleep’. I forgive myself for believing that ‘lack’ exist.

‘Lack’ is a belief, ‘lack of sleep’ is a belief, and within 2 make-beliefs I have accepted and allowed the creation of agitation within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel dis-empowered by the manifestation of agitation within me, not seen/realizing its an energetic state of the mind, not permanent, nor eternal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am based on the energetic state of the mind, true momentarily the mind is agitated, but that doesn’t mean the ‘who I am’ is agitation or agitated. In the silent moment of breath, here, self as who I am, can transcend the temporary energetic states of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify accessing blame because of the agitated state, as if, agitation is an acceptable valid excuse for blame, not seen/realizing with the acceptance of blame, I am simply compounding the already compromised mental state into physical consequences.

When and as I see myself in an agitated state, I stop I breathe, seen/realizing its only a momentary energetic mental state, so I direct myself to breathe and stabilize. Also I realize 5-6 hrs of sleep is sufficient for the body, its only the mind screaming for more and throwing tantrums like agitation.

When and as I see myself accepting and defining the term ‘lack of sleep’ I stop I breathe, to consider if it matches the physical reality, because 5-6 hrs of sleep is no way near any physical lack, its only a mind definition of lack. Within this I breathe and physically support myself by doing physical things to overcome the mind state. Not allowing myself to be dis-empowered by agitation. Breath is life and self-power, not the energies of the mind.

Thanks for reading, inspired by #desteni

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