Day 172: Avoiding details

Be specific, and intimate with knowledge and the details that I seek to understand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not dive in and be specific with what I am trying to understand about subject matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize lack of specificity is carelessness, where I allow myself to just carelessly take in the knowledge without giving it full attention, focus and comprehension.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from things that I want to understand, using limitations and justifications as excuses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to argue for my limitations, argue that I don’t’ need to dive in, argue that I don’t’ really need to know the details in full depth, not seen/realizing its a form of carelessness and fear of details that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to skip thru things, not seen/realizing in that like a drifter I am skipping thru life as well, because even the “things as details” are here as me in another life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize giving my presence and attention Here is how I acknowledge the life in all other forms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear and avoid details, not seen/realizing its not fear, its don’t-care attitude that separate me from the details, the specificities that are here.

Embrace details, be specific.

When and as I see myself trying to shy away and avoid details, I stop I breathe, and bring myself here as breath, and direct myself to dive in, go into the details, become specific about a point, about subject matters that I am trying to understand, because I see/realize just by going thru the surfaces of things I am actually not becoming intimate with anything, life remains shallow and not substantial.

The devil is in the details, exactly where life is too. While keeping things practical and realistic, I understand I can dive in, take in more, become intimately knowledgeable about details, and embrace details in their fullness. This separation and avoidance of details is a limitation, that no longer serves me, time to embrace and be specific about details.

Thanks for reading, inspired by #desteni

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