Day 181: Resistance to understanding

Today’s blog is inspired by this eqafe recording, highly recommended
https://eqafe.com/p/reptilians-the-fear-of-change-part-29

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel resistance when I am faced with something or someone that I don’t immediately understand, in this I forgive myself for wanting to withdraw or quit the moment instead of taking that dreadful step to seek understanding about that something or someone. I realize that resistance is a force within that’s pushing me away from understanding, the force I have accepted and allowed over and over again, so much so, its automated and mighty now, yet without my allowance the force of resistance can’t exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build within me a force, a force that’s so mighty that will make me quit and runaway at the first instance of difficulty, instead of breathing thru and seeking to understand that something or someone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize resistance is a built-in automatic design planted within even before the mind was designed, so for that long I as self accepted and allowed it unquestionably to withdraw, or to quit when understanding that something or someone becomes difficult.

Now that I understand the mechanics of resistance, what’s my counter plan? Until I allow and permit myself to step into that difficult space and face the moment, the barrier will remain eternal, and I will die a fearful scared being with full of regrets and what-ifs, is that what I want to be?

When and as I am faced a moment of great challenge in understanding something or someone, I commit myself to breathe and step into the moment, and give my every effort to understand, also realizing that something or someone is actually equal and one, a part of me, so basically I am understanding an aspect of myself, as myself. Its the accepted and allowed separation that stands as a barrier feeding the energy of resistance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize separation is the barrier to understanding an aspect of myself, as myself.

Thanks for reading, inspired by desteni.

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